PLANNING FOR THE BEST FUTURE

More than a fortnight ago, on the 12th of October, I sat for my very first major exam called PT3 (Pentaksiran Tingkatan 3). On the night before the exam, I shed tears to sleep, worrying about tomorrow's papers. It had been a hella stressful and depressing three days of exam. Not all but most of the questions were difficult because there were many HOTS (Higher Order Thinking Skills) questions where you need to think outside of the box. I also left some of the questions for certain subjects due to its difficulty and the time provided.

Now, I just have to wait for the result to come out and yeah, I'm scared. The result is one of the factors that will determine which class I will go next year. Plus, I think that I didn't do well in some of the papers. I even cried after finished with one of the papers. I would love to go to pure science class which have biology, chemistry, physics and add maths as their elective subjects. Or sub-science which rather than having biology, they have it with principles of accounting as their elective subjects but still have chemistry, physics and add math. The subjects in other classes are not my interest. Still, I need to see if my result is good enough for me to be in those classes.

The thing is, I have to decide what I want to be in the future. I planned on becoming a chemist because I kinda like chemistry and the thought of mixing chemicals into test tubes, wearing goggles and white suit, working in labs. Ahh. I've learned some of the basics in chemistry when I was in Holland so that's why I'm interested. But I'm unsure of what chemists do! Never mind, I'll search that later. 

But I also like designing. Specifically, designing clothes. Yes, I also planned on becoming a fashion designer. I love fashion and clothes. But then throughout my 2 years of high school, I would need to take art stream, and that is not what I want. Learning theories about arts for the past few years were so confusing, I never understand it until now. I have less interest in creating and coloring for arts but creating and coloring for clothes, yes I do have interest for that. 

Ahh I'm in the state of confusion right now. 

But never mind. Let's think of it this way. Whatever it is I want to become in the future, I would first choose and learn the subjects which suit my interest. If I'm interested in certain subjects, I would work hard to learn and understand about it. If I choose subjects which are not my interest, it would be really boring and there's no point in choosing those subjects for the fact that it would be a waste for me.

Whatever job I get in the future, I hope that the job is fun and interesting. Whatever job I get in the future, I hope that the job could accommodate my adulthood life. And whatever job I get in the future, I hope that the job will give me chances to repay my parents' kindness, their effort in raising me up diligently, and everything that they've done for me. I would want them to be able to see me graduate with flying colors in the future, Insya Allah!

Have a nice day,

Aida.