THE LONG AWAITED DAY
The day before the awaited day, 14 March 2018.
It was 10:30 am. I woke up and spent almost an hour staring at the ceiling in my room. My body got chills. It was shivering. Thinking about all the possibilities that could happen tomorrow. I was confident and excited to receive my SPM result tomorrow but a thought suddenly hit me. A thought on how I answered my exam questions few months ago and whether it was worth it.
"I think I'm gonna ace my Bahasa Melayu and Bahasa Inggeris paper since I answered all the questions. But what if I don't?"
"I was able to answer my trial Additional Mathematics paper pretty confidently and I scored a solid A for it. But it went differently for SPM paper and I left a lot of questions unanswered. What if the grade is going to be lower than the trial's?"
"Oh that Sejarah paper. Don't even think about it. Almost all the answers I wrote were not written based on the knowledge from the textbook but created on the spot using my so-called Einstein brain. What if I didn't pass the paper?"
"I have to pass BM, BI and Sejarah paper in order to pass SPM!!"
"Maybe I could get few A's since I was confident in answering Modern Mathematics, Chemistry and Physics papers. But being too confident is not good right? What if the examiners don't accept my answers??"
Haih..so many what ifs' thoughts happening at the moment. I mean everyone would feel the same whenever it comes to these things. Examination result day. Getting interviewed for qualification into university/work. Even if you are nervous just a little. It counts ok.
I mean LISTEN!! I dreamed about receiving my SPM result a month before the specified date. In that dream, I received a bad result, no A's at all. And I cried in the dream and when I woke up I realised that I actually cried in my sleep.
Two weeks before the specified day, I dreamed about it again. In that dream I received a pretty good result. And I didn't cry in my sleep. Pheww..
Then I had the same bad dream as the first one a few days before the awaited day. I received a very bad result and again, I woke up to myself crying again.
How does it not scare you when you have those bad dreams...twice? But what can I do kan? The result is already in KPM's hand, just waiting to be received by the students. All I could do is make du'a hoping for the best and tawakkal to Allah.
Insya Allah, everything will go well tomorrow. Ameen!
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The awaited day, 15 March 2018.
I woke up at 6:30 to perform my morning prayer and I didn't continue sleeping like I usually do. Not to be dramatic but I could feel myself about to vomit even though I didn't eat breakfast yet (my friends felt like that as well so yea, I am no drama queen here :')). So I went to iron my baju kurung, went downstairs to eat and act like nothing important is coming up.
Fast forward to the moment I stepped my foot on the school ground, my body shivered. #perutkecut. I met and hugged my high school bffs and we walked our way to the school hall. As usual, the spokeswomen welcomed the parents and students, then the principal gave a speech and finally it was time to announce the result.
I was half talking with my friends and half focusing to the announcement of students who get near miss result when suddenly "....Aida Amalia binti Annas!!" Y'all, my name was the first to be announced and do you know how panic I got like I'm not ready to go up on the stage yet and then I forgot to look at the camera and smile after receiving the result. I went off the stage and straight to my parents. Haih..I wonder if there's even a decent picture of me receiving the result slip on the stage *sobs*.
After getting off the stage, my mom found me and pulled me towards my father so that they can take a look at my result slip. On the way, my mom told me that my father shed a little tears. I was so happy to hear that because I got to make my parents proud of me and made my father shed tears out of joy. It's hard to see him getting emotional, even a little! #prouddaughterhere.
Therefore, I would like to express my gratitude to my parents as they are my main backbone. The ones who encouraged me in my studies. They didn't push and stress me to study. They believed in me. The night before the result, they told me "no matter what your result is, we are still gonna be proud of you because we know that you've done your best." *tried my best to hold my tears at that moment* They've spent so much money for my tuition fees, revision books, etc. and I knew I had to study harder in order to repay them with excellent result. Alhamdulillah. It came true today!
I would also like to say thank you so so much to my friends who have contributed in realising my dream. Thank you to Reenna who had been my friendcher (aka friend teacher, lol what a word) since Form 3 until Form 5. Thank you to my desk mate, Kai Li, thank you to my best classmate duo, Farahaisyah and Faiz, thank you to Kavetha and Jane. Senang cerita, thank you my 2017 classmates <3. Of course, a special thank you to my best-est Bergurldils and Irsalina for always giving me words of encouragement.
I'm so blessed to have these people in my life. Lots of love for y'all. 💖
In a nutshell, the date 15 March 2018 has made it into one of those memorable days in my life. I thanked Allah for giving me the opportunity to be up on stage receiving my result slip as I didn't get to do so for UPSR and PT3.
Alhamdulillah!
P/s: To those who got an excellent result, CONGRATULATION!!! To those who think their result is unsatisfying to them, it's okay! CONGRATULATION TO YOU TOO!!! I believe that all of us batch 00's had done our very best, had put our efforts into it and that's what matters the most! All the best in the future :)
Fast forward to the moment I stepped my foot on the school ground, my body shivered. #perutkecut. I met and hugged my high school bffs and we walked our way to the school hall. As usual, the spokeswomen welcomed the parents and students, then the principal gave a speech and finally it was time to announce the result.
I was half talking with my friends and half focusing to the announcement of students who get near miss result when suddenly "....Aida Amalia binti Annas!!" Y'all, my name was the first to be announced and do you know how panic I got like I'm not ready to go up on the stage yet and then I forgot to look at the camera and smile after receiving the result. I went off the stage and straight to my parents. Haih..I wonder if there's even a decent picture of me receiving the result slip on the stage *sobs*.
After getting off the stage, my mom found me and pulled me towards my father so that they can take a look at my result slip. On the way, my mom told me that my father shed a little tears. I was so happy to hear that because I got to make my parents proud of me and made my father shed tears out of joy. It's hard to see him getting emotional, even a little! #prouddaughterhere.
Therefore, I would like to express my gratitude to my parents as they are my main backbone. The ones who encouraged me in my studies. They didn't push and stress me to study. They believed in me. The night before the result, they told me "no matter what your result is, we are still gonna be proud of you because we know that you've done your best." *tried my best to hold my tears at that moment* They've spent so much money for my tuition fees, revision books, etc. and I knew I had to study harder in order to repay them with excellent result. Alhamdulillah. It came true today!
I would also like to say thank you so so much to my friends who have contributed in realising my dream. Thank you to Reenna who had been my friendcher (aka friend teacher, lol what a word) since Form 3 until Form 5. Thank you to my desk mate, Kai Li, thank you to my best classmate duo, Farahaisyah and Faiz, thank you to Kavetha and Jane. Senang cerita, thank you my 2017 classmates <3. Of course, a special thank you to my best-est Bergurldils and Irsalina for always giving me words of encouragement.
I'm so blessed to have these people in my life. Lots of love for y'all. 💖
In a nutshell, the date 15 March 2018 has made it into one of those memorable days in my life. I thanked Allah for giving me the opportunity to be up on stage receiving my result slip as I didn't get to do so for UPSR and PT3.
Alhamdulillah!
P/s: To those who got an excellent result, CONGRATULATION!!! To those who think their result is unsatisfying to them, it's okay! CONGRATULATION TO YOU TOO!!! I believe that all of us batch 00's had done our very best, had put our efforts into it and that's what matters the most! All the best in the future :)
Love,
Aida.
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